It deepens, this confusion
magnetic attraction is polar
our ends meet and draw us together
yet we are being pushed away
thoughts swirl in this haze
created by the ambiguous laughter
that resonates in our heads
rembrant light thrown on us,
hide the impurities from view
yet still crouching
you and I are like iron
half is ment to be
while the other will never touch
Nature is cruel in her works
but never as cruel as the images portrayed
in the night in my bed
apart from you I can pretend to be whole
yet I also am lacking my comfort
entwined we wait, embracing our time
until the morning reveals us
in the light of day
as what we really are
opposites all the same
-aj

deep words from an amazing person:

When a word hits you...when it enters your ears and seems to know the path straight to your heart...when it fills your nerves with cohesion...when you forget about incoherence and discomfort as your mind races to fix deeper meanings to the diction...that is my aim...I may write about love, life, suicide...or imagination...but I fasten those lines so delicately for the sole purpose of impact...I dont aim to impress and flatter with subject matter...I aim to crawl deeper into you...I aim to get under your skin...I want to be those silent moments as your mind fights to meet the origin of these lines...I want to be how you hold them close and repeat them to yourself in the echo of your astonishment...most of all...I want to relate to you...I want you to relate to me...know that I have been where you are...from the darkest depression and the past...to the most perfect love and the present...and even into the brightest hope and future...a word that hits me every time...is release...and it echos as forever...and it resonates as love...and it bleeds as these lines....

life is lacking these days.  I have no time or energy for anything and I am on another downfall.  I swear I can't be happy for more than 2 weeks or so before something or someone else just craps on my head.  I'm so confused.  I can't stand how I always am so willing to forgive and overlook the bad in people.  I always do that and it ends up w/ me getting hurt every time.  I need to just stay away from boys.  All they are good for is heartache, at least until I find the right one that is.   

to my dream guy... whoever you may be:

Theres a piece of you that's here with me
Its everywhere I go
It's everything I see
When I sleep
I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

If I could find you now
Things would get better
We would leave this town
And run forever
I know some where, some how
We'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me
And take me away, yea